Last night my mom came into the room and said to me,
"It's time! You need to let your viewers know you are alive."
Well, obviously, I am alive. I started college in August, so of course I have been very busy writing papers and doing assignments. I was also working the first half of the semester, so that took up even more time.
Keeping a blog up takes a lot of time.
A deeper reason is Pretty Thrifty. I have put on quite a bit of weight over the last year, and it has been difficult to post pictures of myself that make me feel, well, beautiful.
I understand the need to love myself in the skin I'm in, but it's hard. I have been struggling with it a lot. Also I am having a hard time deciding what to do next with my life and feeling discouraged.
So overall, I have really been struggling with my self confidence, and my desire to get up and go has been kind of pathetic.
So I apologize.
I don't mean to be neglectful of the blog, but I have been.
And I didn't mean for this to be a sad post either.
What I have been learning through this time is that I have to be patient with God.—to just ask for the next step. If I knew the future, it would give me the opportunity to run from it.
And I don't want to run from it.
I want God to use everyday that I live to prepare me for the exciting future he has planned for me.
I also am learning to love myself for who I am. Not just my body, but my personality and how I interact with people.
I'm not like a lot of people. I am loud, dramatic, awkward, and a little ditsy.
I will probably never be a quiet, still person, as much as I would like to be sometimes, and I will probably never be uber sensitive or meek. I will probably never be a perfect follower or a perfect leader.
I will never be blonde, because I have eyebrows the color of charcoal And that's okay with me :).
I will be who I am, because God knit me together in my mother's womb, and I am beautifully and wonderfully made.
Merry Christmas to you all!
As this year ends, celebrate who God created you to be and remember how much he loves you for who you are.
Teen for the Lord